When to Say When
I have started this blog post more times than I can count, but today, I finally finished it.
I am usually not short of words or lacking descriptions, but, this particular post has taken me so long because I have been teetering in the balance between “keep going” and “stop now” for months. Much like the closing miles of an endurance race, when the brain and body disagree about what’s best, my mind and heart have had differing opinions on what to do.
So. I’ll just rip the band-aid right off: The time has come to hit the stop button on new content for this blog. I wanted to say “the pause” button to soften the blow, but, that is not true. In my mind, right now, it’s the stop button.
When I started Test Kitchen Tuesday five years ago, I honestly never thought I would still be running it five years in the future. I had lots of ideas and energy and time to build a blog, maintain it, and see what happened. I never would have guessed it would have been as successful as it has, that I would have found a niche I didn’t set out to find, or that I would write and publish a book along the way.
For all of the experiences, knowledge, and friendships this blog has brought, I am so grateful. You all let me write about whatever I wanted, on my own terms, and were so supportive along the way. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
But, like a candle flickering and flashing, its wick a burnt nub, its once solid wax melted, my energy to keep going has just about expired. My ever-evolving diet, once the source of great inspiration for new recipes and experiments, is so routine now that the new ideas have really started to fizzle. We eat well — I won’t say I have it totally figured out because all diets are a continual evolution – but I don’t really feel the need to scour the earth to figure out “what’s for dinner” anymore and constantly try new recipes. I pretty much know what works for us and what doesn’t by now.
And sure, I still use my Ninja Blender daily, but, I have pretty much cracked the code on all the crazy different things you can do with it – there is just not much more to say there. I never intended this blog to be so focused around Ninja blenders – it just sort of happened by accident!
You all have been with me through several house moves, a remodel, a broken knee, and a few vacations, and it has been so fun to share my little lens into the world with you.
All that said, there comes a time when it’s time. Time to go about my daily life without thinking up what I’m going to post this week. Time to cook (or blend) a meal and not photograph it before eating or scramble to write down all the ingredient measurements before I forget. Time to just be. Now is that time.
I will still keep the site live indefinitely, and respond to new comments as needed, but am otherwise stepping away from the act of regularly blogging. Thank you for being in my life, and a sincere best wishes to all.
“We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.” ― Tim McGraw